i had been too much obsessed by the slogan type of idea that
.. the bigger, the more powerful, and the faster... the better..
for a long time in my life..
certainly driven instinctively by my masculine desire
as well as brain-washed by sociopolitical need
for high-performer driven society.
so i have a kind of fantasy
toward the bigger and powerful thing..
like 18-wheel truck, armored vehicles, or trains.. etc..
.. though now i know how childish & risky thinking it had been..
at first, I felt pity as I was gazing at them
contained in the small container with oxygen for freshness
hopelessly waiting to be eaten at any time.
Right after the feeling,
I asked to myself..
hey Peter.. do you really think you live in the bigger container?
...
I wasn't sure..
...
as far as intellectual capability is concerned..
I mean all those emotional , logical, verbal, computational, geometrical, artistic and reasoning capabilities which have been physiologically hardwired on us together with such state-of-the-art access mechanism of short & long term memories..
I mean all those collective wisdom, individual free will and historical richness which could be good tools to broadening my horizon.
And at least, as far as the size of the volume of whole brain is concerned..
my earth is not big enough for me..
compared to the fishes contained in that size of water tank..
though it doesn't necessarily mean that I am not happy..
